2008 Intentions

I've never been one for new year's resolutions, mostly because I'm too busy being impulsive and indecisive. Being resolute (about anything) somehow goes against my very nature. So I'm over the need to be something I'm not and would so much rather set myself up for success by having intentions instead. It may just be a simple change in language, but somehow having intentions seems much more my speed.

In 2008, I intend to...

Learn how to wear lipstick. My friend, Kitty, loves to wear lipstick and looks fabulous doing it. I've never been comfortable with painted lips, but I've always admired women (and special men) who wear it well. I'm not talking about slapping on any color haphazardly. I'm talking about learning about colors and proper application. In 2008, I intend to look and feel fabulous.

Pay the bills. I took a new job (I'll talk more about that later) which will provide Ferris and I with some much needed income. Our entire relationship, one or both of us has been in school or training or pregnant or doing unpaid work, which lends itself to mounds and mounds of bills. This new job, along with Ferris finishing his training in June and getting a real doctor job, will give us breathing room. In 2008, I intend to get our shit in order.

Purge my closet. I'm only 5 pounds from my pre-pregnancy weight, but my clothes just don't fit the same anymore. It's not a weight thing, but rather a shape thing. My closet and drawers are full of old clothes that haven't been worn in years, nor should they ever be worn again. In 2008, I intend to free myself of clothes that don't make me feel good about myself while filling my life with clothes that inspire me.

Fortify my relationship with Ferris. There is an inevitable shift in every relationship when you add a baby. Frankly, I expected Ferris and I to be far more stressed and strained this year, but somehow we've managed to...manage...and, man-oh-man, am I ever grateful for that. Even so, I have to mourn the loss of our life together as a couple. Ferris is my oldest friend from my childhood in Pocasmello. We've been close friends since we were 4 years old, up through adolescence and high school. As cliche as it is (I'm holding back the vomit), I fell in love with my dearest and oldest friend, and I miss the unfettered time together. Truly, Eva has strengthened our relationship and made a family out of our rag tag duo, but her presence has made it more challenging to love on each other as much as we would like. In 2008, I intend to love up all over my husband like it's my j-o-b.